Thanksgiving cliche post

It may be over done...but, I can't help myself. I felt the meaning this year...

I'm thankful for the small things this year. Soft fur and a gentle purr in my ear. Sitting in comfortable silence with friends. Having friends to be comfortable with. A dusting of snow. The little ache that reminds me of people who are missing: my sweetheart, my parents, and my sister, friends who are far and not so far away. Memories that make me nostalgic, and memories that make me happy to be who I am, have what I have now.
I'm thankful for realizing that I value my life more than I value my work, and realizing the my work does not have to be my life. I'm thankful for finding my intellectual niche. I'm thankful for my artistic soul and my scientific mind. I'm thankful for the laughter, the thoughts, and the lives of others. And for the first time in my life, I am thankful for humanity.
I am thankful for the existance of love. I am thankful for its sweetness, its bitterness, and its power.
I am thankful for you, whoever you may be. And I am thankful for the chance to be me, and the abitlity to be thankful.

Helter Skelter

I am trying to make sense of the strangest conversation I've ever had
With an old friend who is lost and seems to have gone mad.
I'm beggining to think that sanity is not Real Life.
Trying to reconcile memories with reality.

"She's well aquainted with the touch of a velvet hand
Like a lizard on a window pane.
A man in the crowd with the mulitcolored mirrors
On his hobnail boots.
Laying with his eyes while his hands are busy working overtime.
A soap impression of his wife that eat ate
And donated to the National Trust."

Doubt is a Devil

Doubt is the devil on my shoulder
Whisperin’ in my ear
Doubt is the devil on my shoulder
Never letting me think clear

Pullin at my hair
Whisperin my ear
Her forked little tongue
Sayin that I’m wrong

I find that as I get older
She’s still sittin here
Even as I get bolder
She can still bring tears

And as I get older
This sick little devil
Only seems to grow

And as I get wiser
She’s no compromiser
She twists my thoughts again

Please little devil move over
Let me make decisions without fear
I never wanted this disorder
Whisperin in my ear

____________________

Some lyrics in progress.

The system

I made a D on my exam. And it's a fucking intro class.
I get more sastisfaction from making chainmaille than I do writing an essay, no matter how good or bad the grade. I'm really sick of the grading system. I hate that one letter can ruin my day. Especially when I do enjoy the class, have been engaged in the lectures, and have been doing most of the work. Phooey.

Halfway done

We had a halloween party last night. We invited a lot more people than came, but that turned out fine. A medium size group of friends being silly and talking is enough to make me immensly happy. Dan and Richard were there too. Even better.
Now, I have a lot of work to do. Mostly reading. I'm not behind. Not really. It's just that two of my proffessors have decided I need to read two books for this week. And rehearsals are going an hour longer starting this week. Whee. This should turn out interesting.
The quarter's halway over. The more difficult work and obligations are ahead of me. But I'm that much closer to being back in Chase's arms. I've been alone, romanticallyand sexuall inactive for four months. I'm ready to go home.

Drifting

So I'm begining to feel like I'm losing friends...Not all my friends....Mostly Dan and Richard. I guess it started last spring. They didn't come around much, or seem interested in hanging out. It's about the same this quarter, except now we're not on campus. I really don't like this. I don't want to lose their friendships, but also because it kinda hurts. It makes me feel like maybe something went wrong, and honestly I don't know what or why. Dan I can kinda understand. He can be selfish and a little course...he knows that about himself and sadly doesn't seem to think he should or can change it. Richard however...I don't know if it's just because we're busy and what not. I hope things don't get more distant. I hate drifting. I've lost so many friends in my life. I'd like to keep the ones I finally value and care so much for.

And the beat goes on..

So things resolve themself. It's sunny now. I enjoyed my time at the elementary school. The mail was picked up. I got my money back.
Also, I'm increasingly excited about my role as the Ghost in Hamlet. I can't wait to see what Jon Reeves has in mind for lighting and effects for my scene. =-D